3/29/2000

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. IN MY SECOND PERIOD I HAVE MATH. IN MY MATH CLASS IS A GIRL WITH A LOT OF PROBLEMS. SHE MADE ME VERY SAD. SHE WAS TALKING TO THE HINZE GIRLS ABOUT HER LIFE AND HOW SHE WAS RAISED. APARENTLY SHE WAS RAISED BY SOME TROUBLED AND CONFUSED PARENTS. IN RETURN SHE HAS BECOME TROUBLED AND CONFUSED. i GUESS SHE NEVER HAD A GOOD EXAMPLE TO FOLLOW. I WISH I COULD PLUG MY EARS TO THE UGLY THINGS THAT SHE SAYS BUT I CAN'T BECAUSE SHE IS PRETTY LOUD. LIKE A CRY FOR HELP. I WISH THAT SHE COULD GET BETTER. I WISH I COULD HELP HER. MAYBE ONE DAY I WILL. RIGHT NOW I DON'T KNOW HOW. SO I NEED HELP DECIDING THAT. IT IS REALLY SAD WHEN PEOPLE GROW UP IN BROKEN HOMES. WHY DOES THAT HAVE TO HAPPEN? THIS GIRLS BROTHER WAS ABUSIVE TO HIS GIRLFRIENDS AND APARENTLY SHE THOUGHT THAT WAS NORMAL. IT IS NOT SUPPOSED TO BE NORMAL AND WHAT IF IT IS NORMAL? MAYBE THAT IS WHY WE HAVE ALL OF THESE PROBLEMS AT SCHOOL WITH THE LITTLE KIDS CARYING GUNS. THEY NEED STABLE HOMES. IF I HAVE TO I WILL PROVIDE FOR THEM. SOMEHOW...ANYWAY, I JUST NEEDED TO GET A LITTLE OF THIS OUT ON PAPER SO THAT I WOULDN'T BREAK OUT CRYING IN THE MIDDLE OF TYPING.
I FEEL SICK BECAUSE OF HER TRUE STORY. NOW I REALLY DON'T FEEL LIKE GOING TO THE DANCE TONIGHT. AT LEAST I GOT IN A PRETTY GOOD GROUP IN MY CIVICS CLASS. SOME OF THE BEST DEBATERS IN THE CLASS ARE IN MY GROUP. I AM THE ONLY GIRL. THAT CAN BE GOOD OR BAD. I DON'T KNOW YET.

JESSICA SHELTON/MARCH 29, 2000